Healing, it is a process

So I don’t think I’ve posted for a VERY LONG TIME.

I’ve been dealing with something in regards to my health for the last four months. I’ve been to the doctor more times than I would like…. And I’m still not exactly sure what’s going on. I’ve had the routine checks to see if anything could be found and nothing was found.

Nothing life threatening…. Just very annoying and it has been painful.

The pain has subsided and I’m praying and believing it will stay that way. Now I’m just dealing with discomfort…. I just want things to go back to normal.

I’ve been prescribed antidepressants to help deal with the problem.. Not for my mental state…. My dr is hoping that maybe the antidepressants will stop nerves from firing that shouldn’t be firing. And then maybe the problem and discomfort will go away. She said not to take the pills until I’m done with finals… So this upcoming wednesday…. But I am reluctant to take them, because I am hesitant to think that nerves are the problem. But I’m not a dr. And I go to orlando two days later and will be on new pills. That makes me nervous. At least I have another appointment scheduled for when I get home from orlando.

I’m praying that I’m completely healed before Wednesday so I won’t even have to take them. I do not want to take them.

These 4 months have basically made me become sedentary. I used to workout 4-5 times a week and now I can’t, because every time that I do it causes issues. So I’ve made myself relax…. And listen to my body. I’ve had to wear sweats or skirts or dresses every day, because wearing jeans is irritating to the problem. I had to start my semester in pain… It has not been fun. I don’t know how people can live their whole lives in pain. Sometimes I feel so angry about going through what I’m going through, but it’s a learning experience.

I push forward…

This wont be forever…. It’s just been hard.

Please send your prayers my way, I would really appreciate it.