Give me a break, give me a break

Break me off a piece of that, wanna have a piece of that KIT KAT BAR.

Hahaha I haven’t heard that jingle in a long time. Kind of describes my situation right now…. A break and a kit kat would be nice 😉

In regards to my education… Which is taking up 85% of my time… I have been staying ahead and keeping up with my stuff. This week ahead is a busy one.
– Monday is my first exam of the semester. Financial stuff, blech!
-Tuesday I spent making pie crust from 6-9 (volunteer)
– Wednesday I have an interview for a mentorship program (me being the mentor!!!!) and then I make apple pies from 6-9 pm (volunteer)
-Thursday I clean
– Friday I have a paper due.

Saturday = nothing. Hallelujah!!!! LOL. Well probably playing catch up with my textbooks but ehhhh.

So last I wrote, I was setting myself up to volunteer at this homework club downtown. I went for the orientation and oh boy oh boy, I was not prepared for what I walked into. First off, I didn’t realize what bad of an area it was in…. Gang central, murder street, car theft central. I am sorry but I do not want to be a lone female walking those streets at night once a week! And it’s an hour drive away!!!! The building was in shambles, the inside was dirty, the walls had rules everywhere “no gang signs, no gang colours, no gang etc etc”… I couldn’t get into any room because all the doors were locked. The lady in the locked office looked at me then continued her business. So I’m locked out of the office and confused, finally got some sense and actually KNOCKED ON THE DOOR, lol. I got to the person I needed to see. Decided that it wasn’t for me but I actually had a great visit with the girl who I had the orientation with.

And volia, That afternoon I had another opportunity to mentor kids in literature, nutrition and sport (my FAVE THINGS)!!!!! Best of all, it’s at the university, so it’s convenient, follows university closures and I get an official co-curricular record on my transcript! I got an interview set up for it, I got my references and I am awaiting my criminal record check to come back! I’m so excited to be apart of the organization.

What a whirl wind!!!!

School wise, I’m busy with papers, assignments and studying but man time goes by fast.

Yesterday I was supposed to go out but I cancelled because of studying and needing some down time. I was able to make homemade chocolate chip banana cake and homemade nuts n bolts (YUMMMM!!!).

Oh I also am back to my pre-summer weight, haha, not that 4 pounds is even a big deal. But it’s nice nevertheless.

I had a difficult week emotionally, but today felt like a turning point and I’m grateful for that.

I have made good friends in my classes…. I get so excited to go to class just so I can see them, 2nd year of university is so much better than 1st year.

I was an anxious hermit last year, this year I am a social butterfly. I love it!
Except now I feel the need to dress up nice for class, even if I’m only there for 1.5 hours. Last year I didn’t care really, as long as my hair was alright and makeup looked fine, id leave my coat on and have my pj top on still (I could get away with it because it gets cold here, jackets are acceptable!).

Oh except my one class, where this guy always makes an effort to sit next to me or talk to me about weird things. I’m a shameless flirt but since I’m in a relationship I’ve really calmed it down…. That means I don’t go out of my way to make male friends out of respect for my bf… I don’t want any male friends really, because it’s pointless…. or the guy ends up in love with you and things get awkward…. I know others won’t necessarily have this view point, but I’m a woman who likes female interaction/conversation, I like talking to girls! I get along with women, I don’t want to deal with more men other than my dad and my boyfriend. Hahaha, that sounds funny somewhat.
I know other girls who prefer talking to guys over females, that’s okay too, that’s just not me.

But anyways, this guy knows my name. I don’t know how. I don’t know his name, and I know I have never told him mine. But he talks to a friend of mine, so maybe she told him. He was asking me the most ridiculous questions the other day, I think he was just trying to come up with something to say.

I think his conversation style is what throws me off because it makes me uncomfortable. He’s always asking me about me… My other classes, what time they are…. What classes I’ve taken… Bunch of BS…. I don’t want him knowing my schedule. I leave class fast so he doesn’t walk out with me.
People are interesting!!!!!

Excuse me?

I PASSED my non restricted gun exams today, I am proud of that!!!!
I can go legally buy nonrestricted firearms in Canada now!!!! Not that I have any plans to though, haha.
I felt so awesome handling the shot guns and pistols! It’s so empowering some how. I can’t wait to go to a range!

I was so sleepy and have a bit of a headache all day, but decided to jump on Skype anyways to say hi to the bf, because he asked… So we are talking and having convo then he decides to call his friend (?????)… And proceed to talk for a while until he hangs up Skype (???????) and tells me brb. I was gonna wait, until I said to hell with that I’m tired and want to sleep. Now I just feel irritated at that and not tired. Jeeze loouezzzz janell…. But seriously.

I’ve been on a smoothie kick lately… Sooo good, I grind up some all bran (fiber is my friend!), frozen pineapple, frozen strawberries, Greek yogurt (protein is my friend too!), pineapple & tangerine juice…. And volia! Delicious!

I’m just trying to make myself sleepy now 😉

OH! I’m signing up for these two nights at the beginning of October to aid a fundraiser of pie selling! So the first night you get taught how to make homemade pie dough, then you make as many crusts as possible. The next night you get taught to make apple pies, then you make as many as possible. All the pies made will be sold in a fundraiser for something…. I actually don’t even know what for. But I get taught how to make these things for free, then spend two evenings baking and chatting with other women! Sounds good to me 🙂 I love baking and talking.

If I wanted to I could sign up for a third night…. Making pumpkin pies, but two nights is enough for me with school, cleaning and my other volunteering.

Oh yeah, I’m starting a new volunteer endeavor, I haven’t posted about it yet! I will be mentoring kids and tutoring them! I’m very excited.

Lattes, guns and late periods… Oh my!

I don’t like coffee, I love a cappuccino from one of those gas station machines though… Because they really taste like hot chocolate of all different flavors. And they are just a bunch of fat and sugar, but I love me one of those from time to time.

I’m easy to please with gas station cappuccinos.

Anyways tonight I went out with a friend from high school for coffee at Tim hortons (Canadians equivalent of dunkin doughnuts except less variety)… I decided to take a bold move and try a latte, and spend the extra 25¢ and get a hazelnut flavour shot.
Woopity ding!

OH DEAR LORD IT WAS DISGUSTING. I’m glad I only got a small. My friend tried it too and we decided it was the worst thing we had ever had. (Well with the exception of “noni” juice, *gag*)!!!!

Ehh, now I know how a latte from Tim hortons is. I heard bad things about it, but tested my luck anyways….. Lesson learned.

At least I had a great visit with my friend!

I wake up in 6.5 hours to get my non restricted gun lisence. Course lasts until 4 pm.

That will be interesting.

My period is now 8 days late…. Ugh it did this a couple months ago and back in feb… Once and awhile it decides to be late but make me cramp for a week before. THANKS BODY. Ever since losing 100+ pounds my period is wonky.

Oh and I downloaded iOS 7 for my phone but so far it’s really glitchy 😦 and everything is so damn slow.
I can’t believe how fast this week went by! WOW! But like I said last post, life is good!

I still find myself globbering over him

I have to update about some wacky stuff and some exciting stuff…. But for now I’m just going to globber on about my relationship. What is globbering?? I don’t know if it’s an actual word but I’m going to use it with the meaning of “mush about, be lovey dovey”.

I miss my bf. Less than a month is our two year anniversary. Weird… Crazy. Two years ago I NEVER imagined we would be here….. Never ever… Never even thought we’d make it to a year of even 2 months (how sad!!). Now I can’t imagine life without him in it, even though sometimes I want to pull my hair out with some of his antics.

We found love in a hopeless place
We started from the bottom now we’re here
….. My relationship in song lyrics 😉

Yesterday I was showing him pictures of babies (why? I don’t know… I don’t want babies right now!!!) and then I began to shout out “you and I are going to have green eyed babies!!!” I stopped myself with “you and I….” And then said never mind. Ha ha ha.

I stopped myself and I don’t really know why. I think with him and I, we play it safe. We kinda talk about the future, our future…. But not really? It’s confusing… basically we go with the “we’re committed to make this work until we cant make it work no more, but we’re committed and are willing to put in the work” idea. If that makes sense.

And goodness gracious I’m young. So wtf janell. Hahahaha. The future has in store what it needs to have in store.

I just miss him!!
And I’m sad winter is coming 😦

But… Life is good.

I need to update on the rest of my life sometime.

Along for the ride

The past couple days have been great!! I’ve been able to do things that are outside schoolwork (yet still doing a bunch of school work). Yesterday was basically a day of fun and baking. Originally I was supposed to clean, but I decided to do it today instead… Now when I say clean, I mean 4 hours of house cleaning for this woman, not my own house!! But it felt good to get that done today.

Anyways back to baking, we made all sorts of things. 8 lemon loaves, 24 cupcakes, a two layered sprinkle cake (top layer was confetti, the bottom layer cherry chip, middle full of French vanilla homemade icing!!!) and the top with more icing and sprinkles. We also made a delicious lemon square (my fave).

Why so much baking? No reason in particular except the use of a nice convection oven because my mom is watching her friends son at their house and their oven works beautifully.

Today was my aunts 50th birthday, we all went for dinner at a restaurant called pony corral. It was good, they had cute tiki things and you could see the river too! They had a guy singing exotic music.

If you look close I’m in there… Wearing the light cardigan with black and white tank top under. Haha.

I had the Hawaiian chicken sandwich for supper and it was pretty good!! The fries were ehhh though… Nobody liked the fries

As I’ve gotten older family gatherings have gotten more and more quiet, and awkward.. Funny how things change

But, anyways… Tomorrow evening I am meeting up with girls I haven’t seen in months!! For a bonfire! These girls are the best, i love them! I’m very excited to catch up and see them 🙂

I’m actually tired, and it feels good to feel tired before bed, unlike this whole past week!!! Hahaha oh what a week it was. I survived, and so did you.

Actually the week went by fast! Life is good, I got to remember to not take it so seriously… That’s why I’m making time for baking, birthdays and bonfires… Life is adventurous, lets keep it that way.

What day is it again???

I have been SO BUSY GUYS.

I keep forgetting the day. Between this class, that class, this book, this assignment, pick this, read that, print this, order that, wait here, sleep now, can’t sleep, workout, make sure to shower and eat now, life is BUSY.

Hard to believe that a week ago I was still enjoying summer break.

I’m wondering if I’m making freshman mistakes in my 2nd year with how I study and coordinate my time…

Ughhh, I’m even thinking about not buying a textbook for my one class because I find the book dull and expensive and I know that I probably won’t read it because I’ve had the prof before and never read any of his readings…. Made it out with an A. Social development books bore me.

And economics…. I got so into my textbook and online learning thingys… I went to class today and was so excited because I knew my stuff and wanted to get it solidified…. Man that garbage was BASIC YO. Basic basic basic. So maybe I’m wasting my time studying too much, I don’t know!

In other news, my night class today was CANCELED. Which filled me with joy because I was busy all day and wanted a moment to stop and not think. First class and the prof canceled. I’m not complaining. I actually got to workout, enjoy supper and a hot bath! And watch an episode of ANTM.

Oh and I scraped my arm some how, hurt bad when I was working out and sweat got on it!!! Sting!!!

Tomorrow shouldn’t be too busy… And I got a Skype movie date planned. Yay. Boyfriends choice of movie, I can only imagine what he picked….. (I’m not a big movie fan, lol). But I am looking forward to it.

I haven’t gotten much sleep lately, so tonight I hope I can actually sleep… However I haven’t noticed myself tired in the day even with 4 hours of sleep two nights in a row, AND I’m sick (damn back to school cold) AND I have no appetite. Weird!!!

Thursday I clean

Friday I have to go to aunts 50th bday celebration.

Hope everyone else is well

I’m a big girl now!!

So today (sept 5) marked the first day back to university for me. I’m in my 2nd year.

Sometimes I have to remind myself that I am a university student, a second year university student for that matter. So sometimes I get an “a-ha!” moment, where I really realize I’m a big girl now.

It’s insane how fast time flies.

I only had one class today, microeconomics. I picked my professor out of 6 other profs, based on the fact that her name is Janelle. My name is Janell…. We have the same name (different spelling, but that’s irrelevant). I couldn’t find her on ratemyprofessor, so I was taking a bit of a gamble in my opinion (lol). Turns out this is only her 2nd year teaching, which is probably why she is nonexistent on ratemyprofessor.
But, she is SO NICE. And she has the class set up really neat, even though there’s more than 220 of us students. I’m actually looking forward to the course. I was kind of dreading it, because economics doesn’t quite peak my interests… But hey, I’ll learn something from it!!

I set up my online psych course too today… I have the whole semester planned out… Readings, assignments, etc. the course is “Child development”… Focuses on the emotional, cognitive and physical changes from conception to middle childhood…. I know a lot of the material already from my family courses, but that benefits me because 1. It’s an online class 2. I wanted this class to be an “easier” one since I’m taking 5 classes.

That being said, I have two courses sorted out… Three more to go!! I was so lamely excited today while sitting in class to be back in school. I’m also excited for Monday because both classes I have are with awesome profs I’ve had before! Yay! But seriously, 5 courses… I’ve done it before…. And I know I can do it…. But still a little nerve wracking. If I have to, there’s a course I can drop. I highly doubt I will though… Being busy is good.

Oh and no school Fridays rocks 🙂

My mom is slow cooking some eye of round beef for tomorrow… House smells amazing.

Ontop of going back to school, waking up early and being busy during the day.. I also found time to workout twice today.

I’m exhausted!!!

This was all about school and yadayada… Hehe

Goodnight

More thinking in bed: camp edition

I’ve been camping since Saturday! Im staying with my auntie in her camper. Originally I was supposed to go home Monday, but now we leave tomorrow, or today (depends on how you look at it…. In other words, Tuesday). It’s been so fun, I’ve had such a blast.

Saturday there was 8 of us…. 7 women and one 2 year old girl. Sunday there was 5 of us… Monday there’s 3 of us and Tuesday we all go home.

My cousins came out and we all played games, enjoyed food, bonfires, chatting, laughing. Cell reception was/is at a minimum out here, so if this actually uploads I will be surprised.

Tonight it was just my mom, aunt and I. It had a different tone to it… More serious emotional conversation that Saturday, that’s for sure. But everything is fine!! It was good conversation. And we checked out a catholic shrine…. Very interesting.

I love my auntie, she’s an amazing woman! So much has happened this weekend… Her son (my cousin) had his baby this weekend, so she’s a new grandma, it’s her first grandchild!!! A baby girl!!! They live 16 hours away though.

Made me think about if I marry and have children with my boyfriend…. My family would be left back at home. I would for sure make sure my parents are around for the birth of my child(ren) though…. My family is so important to me… Especially me being an only child. But I’m hoping that in the next couple years while I finish university, that the thought of me moving wont scare them so much, or me so much… Growing up is so scary 😉 yet exciting…. Ughhhhh I don’t even want kids for a long time.

But like I said earlier, I’m focusing on my books y’all!!!! Everything works out and I believe that.

Speaking of which, my first class of 2nd year starts starts Thursday! Microeconomics.

I need to get two more books. I found out I have a class, a 3 hour once a week night class, with a friend!! So that was great news to me 😀

Haven’t really talked to the bf since Thursday, especially with him working and me with bad reception camping… he’s also been sick, so I’m looking forward to getting home and catching up before school starts. Man him and I will be busy.

September is a very very busy month.
School starts, he’s working, I’m taking my gun course… All my weekends are booked!!

Being busy isn’t bad. It’s going to be good. I’m going to learn a lot and grow a lot. I’m going to clean my room before classes start and I’m going to workout and eat healthy. I’m going to get good grades and not procrastinate. I’m going to be happy and live well. I’m going to take things in stride and be awesome.

and that was my pep talk for the night